The Wilderness Journey
May 10th, 2012 by MMillerRev. Dr. Melanie Miller
February 26, 2012
Contemporary Testimony: I have walked that long road to freedom. I have tried not to falter; I have made missteps along the way. But I have discovered the secret that after climbing a great hill, one only finds that there are many more hills to climb. I have taken a moment here to rest, to steal a view of the glorious vista that surrounds me, to look back on the distance I have come. But I can rest only for a moment, for with freedom comes responsibilities, and I dare not linger, for my long walk is not yet ended. – Nelson Mandela, Long Walk to Freedom
Biblical Testimony: Mark 1:9-15
9In those days Jesus came from Nazareth of Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan. 10And just as he was coming up out of the water, he saw the heavens torn apart and the Spirit descending like a dove on him. 11And a voice came from heaven, “You are my Son, the Beloved; with you I am well pleased.” 12And the Spirit immediately drove him out into the wilderness. 13He was in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan; and he was with the wild beasts; and the angels waited on him. 14Now after John was arrested, Jesus came to Galilee, proclaiming the good news of God, 15and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe in the good news.”
The Wilderness Journery: This morning we begin our Lenten journey the same way we do every year. The Season of Lent always begins with Jesus sitting in the wilderness being tempted.
This year we begin our Lenten journey on the last Sunday of Black History month. And so we have the words of Sojourner Truth ringing in our ears. We have the light-shining story of Amistad stirring in our hearts and we bring those words and those stories to the Lenten wilderness with us today.
Maybe that’s why, when I read the words of Nelson Mandela, from our contemporary reading, I could imagine them being spoken by Sojourner Truth and Cinque and countless folks in countless ages. Can’t you hear Sojourners saying and with brother Mandela, “Ain’t I a woman who’s walked that long road to freedom. I have tried not to falter; I have made missteps along the way.” Can’t you hear Cinque, after the long Amistad trial saying, “I have discovered the secret that after climbing a great hill, one only finds that there are many more hills to climb. I have taken a moment here to rest, to steal a view of the glorious vista that surrounds me, to look back on the distance I have come.” Can’t you hear Jesus saying, after emerging dusty, and hungry from the desert, “I can rest only for a moment, for with freedom comes responsibilities. Repent.”
How’s your wilderness Journey?
I had a terrible time writing today’s sermon. Nothing I wrote rang true and I finally figured out why last night. My wilderness wanderings, compared to those of Sojourner Truth and Cinque and Nelson Mandela, seem trite.
Every time I’ve entered a wilderness it wasn’t for freedom. It wasn’t a matter of life and death. It was for purely selfish reasons. It was a matter of personal identity. You know those treks. You grab a backpack and a friend and head out on the Appalachian Trail to discover who you are and what ya got.
I decided to hike the Appalachian Trail through New York state. I was turning 33 in 2002. I thought there must be something significant in all those double numbers so I wanted to celebrate in a significant way. When I learned that there were 88 miles (more double numbers) of AT running through New York I thought this wilderness journey was the perfect way to celebrate. I thought, huh, I’ll learn a lot about myself.
Sojourner’s Truth’s wilderness journey wasn’t about getting in touch with herself. She knew who she was and she knew who she wasn’t. She knew who she wanted her children to be. Her wilderness wasn’t about finding herself. She knew she was a child of God, loved and cherished. Her wilderness was about telling the world what it meant to live like a child of God.
My wilderness journey seems trivial next to that. Every time I’ve entered a wilderness it was only for a few days. My fears haven’t been about life and death, freedom or slavery. My fears have been about camping in the dark. When I started planning that 88 mile trek through New York I decided that it would just be me and my dog. Until one day I was sitting in my hammock reading. It was just a few days before I left. I closed my, and imagined myself on the trail. In my tent at night. That squirrel, in the woods, snapping twigs – what would I imagine it to be? The harmless thing it is or something much worse? A bear? A serial killer? I called my friend Clare five minutes later to see if she’d like to join me on my wilderness journey.
Cique’s wilderness journey wasn’t like that. He wasn’t afraid of sleeping in the dark. He was scared of real monsters who knew no mercy. And he knew exactly who he was in the face of those monsters. He was man with dignity and pride who would not bow down. His wilderness was telling the world that the empire of slavery would not own him. His wilderness was about telling the world what it meant to live in dignity and freedom.
Several years about Bill and I decided to visit Glacier National Park and do some wilderness hiking. Leading up to our time there I was courted by fear again. I became obsessed with how to survive bear attacks. While looking online for this handy information I found the story of the Night of the Grizzly. On August 13, 1967, two young women were separately attacked and killed in Glacier National Park, by different grizzly bears. I memorized every detail of the story and cataloged every possible way I could call down special powers to save me from the same fate.
Nelson Mandela’s wilderness wasn’t filled with fear of bears. It was filled with fears of another kind. But he did not waste one single minute on calling down special powers to save to him from certain death. Do you know what he did? He focused on compassion, love and forgiveness. Mandela said, “I knew as well as I knew anything that the oppressor must be liberated just as surely as the oppressed. A man who takes away another man’s freedom is a prisoner of hatred; he is locked behind the bars of prejudice and narrow-mindedness. I am not truly free if I am taking away someone else’s freedom, just as surely as I am not truly free when my freedom is taken from me. The oppressed and the oppressor alike are robbed of their humanity.”
To live in the prison wilderness of hatred and emerge knowing that you are a child of God, love and cherished and wanting to show the world what that means, what that looks like is miraculous.
I had a terrible time writing this sermon. My wilderness fears seem trivial in comparison. But I have known fear and I have known temptation and I have found that I am a child of God.
Jesus already knew who he was when he entered his wilderness. According to Mark the heavens had just been torn open, and that spirit descending like a dove told Jesus loud and clear who he was, You are my beloved child.” Jesus knew he was. He didn’t need a wilderness trek to find out.
My wilderness wandering may seem silly compared to Jesus’ but I have known fear. I have known temptation. I have felt the devil “nipping at your heels.” And in some miraculous ways those wilderness journeys have helped me face my fears about who I am and what it means. How about you?
If you have known fear and temptation, then you know something about the wilderness, and I bet one of the things you know is how much you can wonder where is God when you have been stranded there for awhile. Why doesn’t God send a rescue team, or at least send a raven with some bread? Why doesn’t God give you the power to rear up and roar so loud that fear and temptation runs away and never comes back? (Barbara Brown Taylor, Bread of Angels, pages 36-40)
Mark doesn’t tell us the details of the temptation conversation. You remember the story, though, right. You remember the devil’s temptations don’t you? First he tempted him to practice magic; command these stones to become loaves of bread. Next he tempted Jesus to call on God for special protection; throw yourself down from the temple. Finally he tempted him to take control of all the kingdoms of the world; all these I will give you, if you will fall down and worship me.
That last one was an empire temptation. Why bother with the little people when you could have it all? “Why should the son of God… be subject to Caesar when Caesar should be subject to him?”
This is the story in which we find out what being the son of God really means. This is the story in which Jesus proves who he is not by seizing power, but by turning it down. God’s Beloved will not practice magic. He will not ask for special protection to seek political power. As much as it may surprise everyone, including him, he will remain human, accepting all the usual risks. It is, after all, the only way humans will ever learn what “son of God really means. A son of God is not someone who is related to god by rising out of his humanity, but someone who is beloved by God for sinking into it, even when he is famished, even when he is taunted by fear and temptation. It is someone who can listen to every good reason in the world for becoming God’s rival and remain God’s child instead. (Barbara Brown Taylor, Bread of Angels, pages 36-40)
This is a story about who Jesus is. But this is also a story about who we are as beloved children of God. Sojourner Truth knew the story. Cinque knew the story. Nelson Mandela knows the story. Do you? There are plenty of times when we too enter the Wilderness Journeys and are dogged by fear, tempted to forget our true identity and grab the things of empire. “That devilish voice in our heads says thing like, ‘if you are a child of God, wouldn’t you have it all?’” Freedom and revenge? Freedom and wealth?
You know what to say back now, right?
I have walked that long road to freedom. I have tried not to falter; I have made missteps along the way. But I have discovered the secret that after climbing a great hill, one only finds that there are many more hills to climb. I have taken a moment here to rest, to steal a view of the glorious vista that surrounds me, to look back on the distance I have come. But I can rest only for a moment, for with freedom comes responsibilities. The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe in the good news.